Bloody bored. Went to meet Mic&Wendy for awhile. Don't know why, just not in the mood to study leh. Was kind of tired too. Went to Cityplaza walkwalk. Also nothing. Was thinking whether we should go to FarEast but went home in the end. On the way home saw Jiawen! It's been such a long time..

I always seem to say the wrong stuff. Maybe i should just shut up or what. And i know whatever i said, i rly don't wanna say it because i just didn't want to. And, you're right, whatever i do, i shouldn't lie to myself. But, i know i did lie to myself. Like how long more am i gonna struggle like this? I rly don't feel good about all these la. I rly don't! But why the fuck am i forcing myself to do so? Huh huh huh why? It's because i want to make our bloody lives easier! And i think i just made things worse. WHY IS IT ALWAYS THIS WAY! I know what i should do alr. I think i've made up my mind cause i don't want all these shit to be dragged on any further, even how much i don't want to. AH fuck off.
Only gonna play the fool one time.